The Day After, Number 2



Here's an April Fool's trick that beats all: spending the day in a chemo treatment center and being the newbie there. YMMV, but I found it to be a pleasant experience. I'm getting my treatment through Compass Oncology, and am finding their staff and facilities absolutely top notch. I felt very cared for every step of the way.

That being said, here it is, the Day After, and I feel like, well, pond sludge. No energy. Don't feel like eating (but I have eaten a little). Managing to keep a more or less constant inflow of water and green tea. Being mindful of not ingesting sugar - sugar feeds lymphoma, and I'll be damned if I'll feed these little aberrant cells any more than I have to. Nausea? Nada - good drugs have taken care of that. Pain - minimal. Again: good drugs. Mostly I just need to rest, but really am not sleeping during the day today, just resting.

We're all feeling very relieved that the first thing yesterday morning Dr. D let us know that my cancer is an early stage 2 - which makes it comparatively easy to treat and the prognosis is good.

Just the same, I am very glad that I left work last week with most everything caught up, and finished the Oregon State University Master Gardener class on Tuesday. (Just have 60 hours of practicum to do in the coming year to get my "little orange badge" that identifies me as a Master Gardener Volunteer.) Things are pretty good - I have wonderful support (thank you B, family, friends, co-workers and staff @ work).

What more could I want? Oh, maybe a nice selection of scarves for my head in a week or so.

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Originally published 4/2/2015

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